Thursday, June 12, 2008

funeral

today, i went to a funeral. there must have been close to thousand people there. i couldn't even get into the chapel where the funeral service was being held. i, along with hundreds of people, stood outside waiting... not sure what i was waiting for.

i ended up leaving after a while. i wondered how many of those people that were there felt really close to this person. surely, a person can not have this many close friends... neither was i a close friend. i just wanted to say goodbye to someone i once knew...

i didn't get to say goodbye, but then i felt okay because there were so many people that wanted to say goodbye...

my funeral, i am positive, will not have more than few relatives and very few friends. i have made sure that i did not have many friends. i am not sure why i do that, but i prefer to push people away than to be friends with people.

i think everyone will be happy at my funeral for having ample space and sitting room.

3 comments:

Memphis Steve said...

I think you would be surprised by how many people think highly of you and would be there if they knew about it.

Nicole said...

You don't know me, but you commented on my friend's blog about a zillion years ago.

your writing greatly impresses me, and that's saying something. you are a very eloquent writer. I'm sure you will never know how many people will miss you when you're gone. Someone special told me that once, and I never forgot it, so never forget how many lives you've touched without meaning to.

Nicole said...

Thanks for the comment- I love feedback too.

Its both comforting and depressing that you feel the same as I do sometimes; although I'm not alone, I will never outgrow worries. It doesn't surprise me, but its still sad.

Hey, maybe we'll be worry free when we're 80...